Learning Patience

In Tokens and Omens, Zander comes to a point in his life where he’s discouraged and unsure of how to proceed. He retreats to the woods and meditates. Here’s the passage:

Zander rubbed the round stone between his thumb and fingers and puzzled over the change. When the fortune teller gave it to him the red and black shared equal space. Now the black had crept across the surface until only a bit of red remained at the tip.

Uncertain how to use the stone, Zander held it in his right hand and closed his eyes. He took in a breath, and released it slowly, continuing with the measured breaths until his shoulders relaxed and the knot in his stomach released. After three more breaths, the sounds of the forest filled his being.

Oak leaves rustled like the wings of birds in flight.

A duck swam downstream with a subtle splash.

He cocked his head at a woodpecker’s sharp cry as it searched for insects.

As he inhaled the tangy green life, a whisper of a breeze ruffled his hair.

With his eyes closed, Zander experienced the gulch differently. He needed to approach life in a new way too. Before he brought the stone to his heart, he mulled over what he needed to let go.

Anger. It threatened his relationship with the one person he trusted. 

He’d been foolish to dream of becoming a Protector. It was time to let it go.

Sweeping his hand across his chest, Zander held the stone at his heart.

He waited.

He had no concept of how long he sat, but gradually a tingle started in his heart and spread throughout his chest. The energy encompassed his neck and head. It traveled through his legs and into his arms. When the vibration returned to the stone, it grew stronger and journeyed again through his body.

Still, he waited.

On the third wave of energy, Zander stepped away from his body. He observed himself sitting under the tree, eyes closed, hand clutched at his heart.

He witnessed the anger and the love at war over his heart. Black and red mist swirled around his body; sometimes more black, sometimes more red.

He ached for the little boy who felt unloved and for the older boy who was bullied and betrayed.

After long moments, Zander opened his heart. He held enough love to overcome the pain he’d endured.

His spirit eased back into his body. As he adjusted to sight, Zander studied the stone in his hand. The black was gone. Only the red remained.

In the last two weeks, I’ve felt discouraged that Tokens and Omens hasn’t been released. I’ve been impatient. Today I meditated. In the book, there are two fortune tellers who use tarot cards to predict the future. In my life I use zen tarot cards to help me focus in on the lessons I need to learn. I drew three cards.

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Consciousness – there is a crystal clarity available right now

Turning in – you are ready to watch the show and not get caught up in the drama

Patience – it is a time when the only thing to do is wait

I meditated on these three cards and found peace. I’ve let go of things out of my control and am trusting in the perfect timing of the universe. My road has twisted in an unexpected way. I can’t wait to see what’s around the corner.

Out West Books received 20 copies of Tokens and Omens. As of the moment, they’re the only copies out. Join me in developing patience as we wait for Amazon to ship.

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8 thoughts on “Learning Patience

  1. Beautiful. I love your descriptions of breathing in the green and a whisper of a breeze. Looking forward to reading more, and practicing patience with you till then. Much love.


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